Six Days

The ketamine started to stop working last night (the 17th) around 9:00.  I began having little pings of suicidal thoughts, two between 9:00 and 10:00 and one early this morning.  During the day (yesterday) I had felt great.  Saw my therapist that afternoon, I think shocked the socks off her.  I was able to push myself to do stuff today, so I took full advantage of my days and I'm working at turning off the suicidal ideation, but it is back.  However, I'm not hopeless, so that aspect is much better.  I see my psychiatrist tomorrow and I expect that he'll set up another infusion.  To all my fellow patients and readers battling depression--hang in there!  We're going to finally convince the mental health profession that we are fighting a physical disease and that's the first step in finding a cure.